Cotton Rich

ok enough of entertaining you for your narcissistic superficial shit!! wake up and do something damn it!!!! gosh. you should know that i'm not the only one who's feeling this way. wake up your idea and stop acting cute for the love of god!!!

get it over and donw with for the stupid 5 days. take the money and save it up for laos trip in dec. oh man i really dun wanna do this job.... having your dad as your boss and your mom as your manager/supervisor... this is not cool man, not cool at all...

you gave me a fuzzie warm family kind of feeling, and when you're around i always feel secure. the safe at home feeling. yes you have the X factor yes you are fucking humourous and yes you really make our day. ALL THE TIME!!!

been taking lots of pictures recently, maybe my passion is back. when the camera bag is with me i'll be up to go anywhere to snap photos.

thank you jeremy for lending me your camera and the camera bag for such a long time. i promise i'll take good care of it.

i'll just wait till i'm 21 and the both of you can eat your own shit i tell you!! EAT YOUR OWN SHIT!!

i'm glad i got to know you girls better, and it's almost inside out. now we're sure that if we travel together next time we can stay together with no problem. come to think of it, everything we have done together was the craziest shit ever.

Give and take, holdin back for the love of god, fighting for 40secs and then making it up the next moment.

bottom line, i love you girls!!

ok theres 2 types of of people who stayed in 206. the quite lap sap kia, and the sibeh lap sap kia.

WAHAHAH!! LOL

i realise that the both of them are actually quite comfortable lying on my arm and being close to me. the more i thought about them, the more i love them. if only i can talk to them on msn messenger...

i finally found the long missed mian tang at golden mile complex. at least i had alittle taste of laos that night. yeepee!!!!

still laos sick after 2 weeks... high standard of living, aggressive pace, aggressive people.

i remember when a team mate of mine fell ill and on the verge to go home. i remember how we faught it through with her. i remember she decided to stay and everyone cheered for her.
i remember the shy smile when one of the kid said "i love you" to me. i remember the ever ready smile on their faces blasting it on you when ever they see you. i remember the sincerity in ther eyes when they ask "sabaidee, whats your name?" and they handed out a piece of paper for you to write your name on it. i remember the scene when we walk into a class and everyone stood up palm against palm ready to greet you. i remember english lessons when students have no text books and still have to follow up with the syllabus. i remember the moment when kids crowded around the 3 of us during jewellery making and friendship band session. i remember the time whenwe was making jewellery under the hot sun, a kid dug out some paper from her worn out sling bag and fan me with it. I remember on the same occasion, a kid named "tutu" open up her umbrella and sheltered me from the scorching sun. i remember a couple of boys played sepak takraw with us even though our legs(gabby's shin) kept flying without touching the ball. i remember when this 2 kid namely kii and tepmala invited us to their house, even though his living condition isn't very well, he's been the best host ever. i remember the smile on kii's face and his nodding head when he can't seemed to understand what we were trying to transmit to him. i remember the sudden visit by the kids 7.30am at our guest house during the last few days before we were coming back. i remember the hardest good bye when sending kii back to his home after he have visited our lodge for dinner, i remember that he insisted for the 3 of us to stay over at his place but we have curfew and just couldn't. i remember beating myself up not able to communicate with kii. i remember kii acting man covering his face and cry. i remember home visiting a shack to see a deaf, mute boy and family, life was hard for them but they're satisfied with the condition they are in. i've learn that once life have started simple, we'll be satisfied with being simple and having simple lifes. i remember promising people there that i will quit smoking and go back to laos in dec.

i remember pubing in vangviene and saw a ang moh girl rub a cigarette all over her face before smoking. i remember crazy drunk ang moh guy haressing us on the streets and in the sucky hotel. i remember spraying insect repellent on his leg for don't what reason. i remember all the late night card games that made everyone all high and crazy. i remember feeling lazy to fill up the journal for most fo the nights. i remember to help cleaning the new build library with a toilet brush. i remembr all the mid-night soya bean/ gossiping session. i remember the highness that gushed up all over our 1st time tasting pasta in laos. i remember my slipper being flushed down by the river current. i remember crossing over to the river for the sake of photography. i remember kayaking in cooling fresh clean river water when i suddenly see crap floating around. i remember using my ass power to free me and my team mate's kayak from rocks. i remember the night when i had abrasion and had to walk around like a crab. i remember holding crazy fun meetings with my team at certain moments at night. i remember my angels secret letters in my pigeon holes. i remember writing funny unreadable letters with rachel and drop it into everyone's pigeon hole.

i remember our mini clubbing in room 206 and thats hell of a good crazy fun memory. i remember kicking bibi when she starts grinding her teeth in her sleep or snore too loud. i remember our messy room (which by the way did not get any better even when we left the lodge) i remember the smoke while shiting with the toilet door open. i remember shitting in the bushes with puah and bibi beside me. i remember tubing into a water cave and snap a leading rope. i remember playing with torch ligh during a black out. i remember thinking of laos when i boarded the plane from budget terminal. and i remember thinking of the same thing when i boarded the plane from udon thani.

i will remember......all of my team mates, all the hell of a good times we had.

will you ever give up your dream to become a life saver? the dream that you are chasing after now? your passion? will you? can you?
this person who have switched from being a designer for 3 yrs to become a paramedic. she has always been in the background of the team. later did i found out that this particular person in the background have given me such impact.
giving up being on the surface, giving up being superficial about life.
can i give up my dreams one day to save lives, to be like that? will i? i just can't answer it, i can't answer myself.

have faith in you... have faith in you... SHEESH! what the hell was i thinking?!! you fucked up in the end anyway.

SABAIDEE!!!!!!

Ratio, ham ji, bee bee, crabby, alica, alisha......

i miss mother puah!!!

Lakon peeps