having pig stomach soup with alot of pepper now. oh man.. it's so so hot and nice. haha i know jeremy will be damn jealous now. haha!! i know you miss my grandma's cooking.
did abit of enamel today and alot of stupid shots in the studio. with our lack of knowlege in studio photography, and our anyhow arrangement. the photos came out ok.
syl was suffering from food poisoning and didn't manage to make it to school. we were in the same restaurant at the same time but lucky i didn't eat much.
i like to talk but i dunno how to talk, argh, what the heck...
purple pee and a headache that really kills me. so, when am i gonna die?
went to PPC on friday to help syl install the god damn indesign and illustrator to her lappy, have to go to a corner to steal the weakest wireless connection ever. after that KL, syl's friend sent me to syc. thanks to him i dun have to awkwardly walk in the rain with a bright pink umbrella.
surprise to hear that i go to SYC? yea i went there for the sake of alvin's performance, siyi's and glady's hugs and kisses. we have got to organise a gathering soon damn it! and some ywd chief or duno wad chief ask me to design a brooch for all the WD and for mrs Ikeda. didn't know i can get such lobang on such a rainy day. ok now i'm just blabbering nonsense.
was on duty for stupid nafa open house exhibition frm the jewellery department on sat morning. i didn't sleept a single bit the night before. and then chye was being nice, he ask me to go up to the workshop and sleep on the sofa. lucky me, i get to sleep for 3 hours. and at night dad came to fetch me and my brother frm his studio to JB, it is to attend a wedding dinner. and thats how my killer headache started. sleepless night plus a day without food which all adds on to my mothin sickness and that stupid restaurant is 45mins away frm johor custom. and i reach home puking my guts out. bleah!
finally i get to rest today. a whole day of watching cartoons, 1st 3 episodes of the L word, facial and work out.
1 yr 7 weeks more to my diploma cert and fuck out of NAFA. i shall press on, i have to press on for i want you to too.
this is what my shifu has told me before when i was having problem with facing my studies the last time. it's simple, but it helps me to hold on to my dream.
Simin, It's OK to fail now than to fail later. So buckle up and start working hard, it's not too late, you could still score high if you start now. All people who suceeded must put in much more effort than others, that's cause and effect in Buddhism. To give up is a loser, not only in school but also in life, we all are supposed to be winners. Be positive, very positive. Do things that matter first, then there are times you do what you like. I remembered telling you that you have to believe in yourself to excel don't lose confidence just because of a small setback. OK ? CBK this is a stupid day.. pants off boo. and half my pocket money is gone. and someone wanted to have a manogamous relationship with me............. met jeremy after school and had alot of chicken rice for dinner. urgh..urgh. wa chatted till 11.45pm and realise that we have missed the last train. so we ended up taking a cab home. didn't have enought cash with me so my bro had to bring down money to save me from the horrible attitude driver. have to finish chionging desktop publishing now.
i walked home against the rain frm pasir ris mrt today. and then when i reached home i realise that i actually sprained my middle finger. dun think dirty you ass. i didn't even know how i sprained it.
wanted to meet up boo so badly but he's too busy with his projects la. pants off boo! can't wait to meet you on thurs, mr partner in crime.
had mos burger with syl, and she is so tempted to take cab home. then i just say "eh damn full now leh i also feel like taking cab home" the moment she hear this she bth already. walk damn fast to the raod frm the bus stop and flag flag flag. syl, you're a LB always take cab. fwahaha!!
i found maggots in the pot of my sprouts. YUCKS!! so out of anger, i sprikle pepper and chopped chilli all over the cotton wool.. haha!! die bloody hell die!
just reached home from last day of work before school starts. i'm starting to plant alot of sprouts lately. seeing them grow makes me go WOOHOO!! and then after that it goes into the cage of my hamsters. wahaha!! oh btw, i swear to you i saw one of my green bean move just now.
sigh.. i feel so .. argh!! i suddenly forgot all my vocabularies. fuck, just can't thinkof the word. have been asking around what the stupid word is and i still can't remember it.
argh nvm.. tmr is the 1st day of school, feel so sick to even think of it. think the only motivation to go to school is syl. now we xiang yi wei ming in class already. LOL.
my bro bought me a giantic bar of WONKA chocolate OMG!! it's the same bar that charlie got for his birthday!! the one with the golden ticket!! but this one dun have the golden ticket la, how i wish.it's rice crisps and gooey caramel, amothered in milk chocolate. oh man, it's yum of the yum.
damn long never see my bros already. i hope i can transfer to HFC soon so that i can work with you guys. p.s. if you dare do it again, pls hide it so well so that we won't whip you for it.
btw subway DTE air pressure is damn heavy, all of us kenna ear block for the whole week already. damn sickening. and it's funny how a fast food restaurant can cause you ear blocks.
You are certain and confident when you choose to love someone. Even though your romantic choices may be unconventional - you stand behind them. Your friends never know you as well as a romantic partner does.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1
You are most compatible with people born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, and 30th of the month.
suppose to go to school today but my lecturer couldn't make it, den syl say tmr den go to school, so i went right back to slp. and wake up with a worse cough than i ever have and flu again!! argh!!
i met up Jeremy yesterday evening. i spend so much time waiting for him to get his ass to meet me. well, jeremy is always late. i absolutely love wasting time with him, and we found out that we had a routine everytime we meet up at the gardens, we'll always debate which cafe to go which normally is either coffee bean or mac. den after resting there for awhile we will get all annoyed by the sits and everything go to a park where we can have awesome wireless connection. doin shits like imaginary seesaw, foot reflexology, climb this climb that. den talk loud loud also no one care. den when we're tired and decided to head to the bus stop where i can take my bus home, we'll always have a im prom tu supper at the prata shop. and then we'll talk beside the bus stop, when we talk we just can't stop. i missed like 5 buses yesterday.
i know you're worried for me, i myself know that it will never come to an end and might hurt myself. but i don't care really. cos i just want to be emotionally satisfied. if i just walk off, no one will ever be possible. alright heck all my crappy theories, just get prepared to listen to all my whines and sulks and complains when the time comes.
having a very bad headache now. argh!! i think it's my computer screen. yeah! going to school tmr, not that i like to go to school cos i've already lost motivation, but it's cos i miss my ai mei!!!
went for world peace gongyo in the morning with mom granny and bro. don't wish to go initially, but luckily i met siyi, so get to do abit of catching up.
chances of me to quit smoking are 50, 50. i went down stairs to get another packet yesterday and i feel utterly guilty for doing so. but bth means bth. lol
was doing some cleaning my room and throwing away a small closet. that stupid closet is finally gone after following me around for more than 10 yrs. so as i was cleaning my room, i accidentally kicked a power plug and electrocuted msyelf 2 times in a row.
i feel so inutile through this whole school holiday. didn't do much to improve my school work. didn't work cos of my dad, it's a stupid issue to be brought up. i'll start work next week anyway. the only memory i had in subway down town east were....
1. new year's eve cos i have to freaking clean up the stupid spray and literally chase customers away so that we can close on time and also in the end i had to walk home.
2. azumi trying to give some very warm hearted services, he even took like 10mins to recommend every single sandwich including the giant sub ok. and then after that we tipped toe to serve all the customers and had a tag pasted on my uniform saying that my leg having problems.
ok, thinking of all these crap i can't wait to go back to work.
mom found cigarettes in my bag.. argh...... and the number me and syl saw that day strike consolation yesterday, fucking thing is i nv buy. mom was yelling at me in the morning while i was trying to act asleep and disturbed. i have so so broke her heart. why would she search my bag in the 1st place? perhaps she already has her suspicion. what am i to do, tell her i didn't quit the last time she caught me and i have been doing it for 5 yrs and btw i dun intend to stop so soon. OR i shall just leave her in denial and let her think that i will and maybe she'll find cigarettes in my bag again in the next 5 yrs.
the worst thing isthat she found cigarettes in my bag and then she took it away. and only 5 sticks gone!!! argh!!!! my freaking $10 got thrown away.
sigh i dun even know how to face my mom when she came home from work later at night.
mom suddenly came home in the afternoon and she is now forcing me to clean up my room. WTF. i am suddenly not used to her pressence.
i need more nice songs to be in my mp3 player and zui jin can't be played from the player. i'm getting quite sick of the songs i have in there.
was having maggi mee for lunch, and the stupid soup spit in my eye. there's a hot piercing sensation and now my lower eye lid is swelling so much that when i close my eyes, my upper eye lid can feel the bump and it's kinda blocking my view. LOL
syl is sick today, so poor thing. asked you to rest liao. anyway i went to school with a packet o jiao zi with me, it's so tempting, feel like stealing one and eat it. went to school to hand in my stupid photography explanation letter.
i almost fell alseep on the king size bed watching cartoon with the melody of syl typing on the key board. den i went to her work place with her to zor bo and had a very very filling dinner. uhhhh.... i feel damn pai seh for not being to afford to order any drinks there. so the only excuse i give myself is "oh i need a decent place to sit down and smoke".. ah.. i'm full of shit la. LOL and then while i was having this excuse in my mind. i felt a terrible headache. so eventually i couldn't take it and went home. and the person siting beside me on the bus makes it worse cos he kinda smells like dog food. pui!!
cough, cough... stupid cough is still not going away. argh...
wake up early in the morning to go to school for assessment then the lecturer end up do not believe that i took the photographs and was sent out of the room. so now i have to write a letter of explanation and hand it in tmr. fuck up.
i hope my ai mei will turn up tmr for enamel. stupid fucking wrinked pussy and argh!!! i think they are the cause of my intestinal disorder characterized by abnormal frequency and fluidity of fecal evacuations, which basically is call diarrhoea.
i think jian hao and spoon had a fight or something. they used to hug each other to sleep and now they are sleeping on diff ends of the cage. incase you dunno my friend gave me 2 female hamsters. but i already name them before hand. so.. ya. jian hao is a girl.. LOL
i don't feel comfortable today.. not sure why. argh.. heck, maybe i need to sleep.
bye btches, i'm off to do that stupid explanation letter.
another project day at syl's place. LOL i'm getting too broke to have any more of these "projects" thingy. i hate myself for taking a cab home frm pasir panjang this morning. i could have took a bus. but all because of laziness. fuck laziness man! i went home to sleep and when i wake up the inner of my ear hurts. i think it's because of my cough. i want a good massage..... humph.... hehe i want my ai mei's massage.. LOL
i've rest enough to party tmr. and rest enough i mean sleepin for 12hours and gonna do another round of 12hours tonight. if i don't wanan go fly is not becasue i'm tired it's because i'm afraid i'll feel cast out which i'm sure i'll not be, cos you are around. you asking me to go fly with you and your friends, it means alot to me you know. and i really appreciated it. and i can totally understand that if you dun want me to. and ass against zipper thing, to be frank i like it ok. if you're bian tai den i am more. i love to read tags, so no worries abt flooding the board. i know you are capable of taking care of yourself, why do you have to go on saying sorry for. if i walk off or just turn around and ignore him. then i think i can afford to have a bleeding cb or maybe worst than that.
to other ppl which this post is not meant for. she is just a friend, a special friend. nothing more than that. well, ai mei is ok, but still friends.
i haven't been sleeping enough, 4 more hours to go to replenish my energy. ah heck! have slept for 4hours and can't sleep anymore cos i'm going down to felicia's birthday chalet. i guess this will be the 1st chalet that i will not stay over. haha. i'm just damn tired la.... actually the reason is that i can't have 3 over nights outside in a roll. or i guess my mom will flip.
yes that means i have stayed out last nigh and going to be as well tmr night. what a life dude. i need to "do my projects" at sylvia's house with 2 other classmates. well, that just an excuse that i told my mom. it works all the time. so what happened was i went to stupid mambo night at zouk with syl lawrence and some of their friends. it was fucking crowded and see alot of ppl miming on the podium. we took around 20mins to squeeze in. with lots of sorry with your hand in the buddha action many times to imply a pai seh since ppl can't hear you. and their songs kinda sucks man. a few Rnb here and there didn't do the trick either.
if you see a horny bastard trying to hit on a girl, going down on her frm the back and everything. wouldn't you want to wack him up? expecially when he still continues doing so and even closer this time after he saw you glaring at him? #%&&*())%^$%@!$@!#!%^&^*&^*W#^@%!#$!@@#$@!RT%!!!!!!! a person who is BTH has to do what a person who is BTH has to do.
all the horny bastards in the world should just have a death sentence or something. they are all bastards or are the fucker ohh no it's fister. ah!! what ever la. (this sentence is just for your entertainment syl)
woohoo i danced with 3 hot girls!! *raise eyebrows* lol. although many times when we were dancing it's just boob talk. the advantage of being short. i'm just kidding really, pls dun take me as so bian tai. cos i'm not the one who force someone to the wall and rub my ass against that person's zipper. woohoo, that was pai seh but kinda nice. so again dun take it the wrong way.
went to a 24hours prata shop at around 3+4 to have some according to syl "orgasms" it's a prata with cheese and mayo. it is indeed orgasmic. the rest went home to rest whie poor syl have to wei le wo, pei me until morning. ok so to make it short what we have done it is practically talking non stop for around 5 hours.
oh shit it's raining now. dun feel like going to the chalet. but my friend's 21st birthday, must show face abit la huh. moreover her present is with me.
alright good bye my bitches have a good night! oh.. evening..
causing or evoking pity, sympathetic sadness, sorrow, etc.; pitiful; pitiable: a pathetic letter; a pathetic sight.
2.
affecting or moving the feelings.
3.
pertaining to or caused by the feelings.
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miserably or contemptibly inadequate: In return for our investment we get a pathetic three percent interest.
season 1 Queer of folks has indeed ended very sadly.
i see you getting dote on by this unknown person who has suddenly come into your life. and i so pity you. Just like how you like to self pity. i dun understand why you care abt this kind of ppl. for a good fuck? when you have been doing this for a year with tons of ppl coming on to you and you're still a virgin now?
you're not hurt by ppl. you want to get hurt.
hey dude, you're so ugly (oh i'm hurt) hey you, you're fat (oh i'm hurt) hey you're one irritating son of a bitch(oh i'm hurt)
oh pls, get a life dude!! you fucking pathetic piece of shit aka pain in everybody's ass.
you are important to me thats why i'm frank to you. if you can't understand what i am saying den i think you have to organise your thoughts and reflect your conscious. i am serious abt this. dun think that i am just kidding or just trying to spike you. i am not. you might be hurt seeing what i have written here. but i just wanna be frank and tell you wad i really feel. i just feel that we are so close, this kind of things no need to hide wad.
if the whole world seems to be the problem, it's usually you.
work till 1am no bus no cab i have to fucking walk home.
it's 2007 now 2006 wasn't a very good year, i made friends who fucked up in the end and friends who treasure friends. i got to know my brothers better. and i got closer to a friend, my ai mei. FWAHAHA LOL
yesterday the last day of 2006 i finally made the $85 that i was longing for out of selling a pandent.
i'm gonna have lunch with BOTH my granny and some of my relatives later at dad's place later. WOOHOO!! i love my family even though some of thems till can't accept me for being lesbian. but oh.. well.. i always believe that, it's not who you love, it's how you love.
ok now new year new start new year resolution for 07
save up 1k to go to cambodia with family oh fuck i hate to work
start preparing portfolio take redoxon everyday
cut down on smoking i know jeremy will be so fucking darn happy to see this (promises are meant to be broken anyways, just kidding)
master the skill of casting that means bribing ah chai more
i think that already alot to handle so i shall stop here have to sleep now. working tmr, damn it i really hate to work. sorry i'm a spoilt brat.
