Sunday, December 31, 2006
- relatives came to singapore to visit my family
- i bind my breast and shock everyone who are still living in denial
- brought them to dad's place to eat and shop at metro sales
- i bought a shirt
- went to a wedding buffet with my family in the evening
- my ai mei called
- talk for quite long and my cousin thought that my ai mei is my gf (oh wth)
- my bro came, we talked cock and went home
- i suddenly kenna flu
- grandma did some high level energy transmit thingy (something to do with qi gong)
- and i'm fine now
i wanna spend more time with my grandama and aunt and with the kids as well. but they are leaving soon. i hope i can have the time to join them on the cambodi trip in may.Saturday, December 30, 2006
Friday, December 29, 2006
i bit my lips 4 times today.. damn it, i need herbal tea.
jian hao and alex helped me out with my studio photography project. hey if you think that jian hao can't look good on photo then you're wrong. i will reveal some nice pics of jian hao when it's developed.
went shopping after the photo shoot. walked around in orchard with jian hao the whole day. and my foot is aching now. ah.....
met up with maybel around 7pm. she treated me nydc for dinner. and the mud pie is so darn nice!
I WANNA WEAR MY NEW T-SHIRT!!!
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Beverly gave me a delicious candy cane, woohoo!!
i've just finish the pandent for karen today.
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my previous post is not to pin point anyone. it's just for all 3 of you to realise how not worth it is to give up things like that.
just came back frm subway DTE, i pour ice down jingyi's back FWAHAHAH!!! and we spend freaking 30 mins to insert the stupid metal thing for the stupid shutter. and the stupid coffee grinder is hell of a pain in the ass to clean man.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
there are alot of things important in life. friends brothers buddies. guys, when you are irritated by that someone, at that point of time will you think abt how that someone who has irritated you had stood by you when you needed guidiance when you feel lost? the thing is, we shouldn't fret abt small little things that will harm your relationships with your close ones. life is about how you give and take, to and frm other ppl especially to your friends who are close to you. the more problem you have with that fella who is supposingly close to you but in you way all the time? dude, you guys are getting to know each other better.
i wrote this thing on purpose for the 3 of you because i don't wanna see our friendships becoming "ginger" that is also i appreciate and treasure you guys alot. you know who you are.
i just checked my mail and i have received a reply frm shifu. oh my god! i am so so so delighted. i can't describe how i'm feeling now. i am just very very happy and very encouraged. i really hope to meet him up soon.
Monday, December 25, 2006
WOOHOO!! my 1st time celebrating christmas!!!
went over Syl's place to pass her a RnB disc that she needs to bring to work. and i had BBQ at her place! woohoo and.. oh ya i was toasting marshmallow in her toaster and i caught fire. is that kid's fault. lol
went to subway HFC to meet up with bro.
initially planned to go to happy with bro and elfie with his friends. but it was cancelled last min.
so we went to alley bar to have a sip. on the way to centre point frm cine leisure. i saw some bastards spraying foam at girls and ah neh.. wahah!!
took a cab down to st james's "dragonfly" oh man.. music there, 5 star. interior decoration, 5 star. ambience, 5 star. sound system, 5 star. plus there's non stop hits of live band and RnB. i totally love that place. only thing is that it cause me and iwan $30 per entry. i just got to know frm syl that we can just pay for 1 entry and bar hop around st james. not a bad offer eh?
at around 5am bro company me flag a cab, and i wen tot meet syl for breakfast and of course to mu gou. and went home to coma abit before going to work.
yeah i have transfered to downtown east. fwahaha my journey there frm home is only 15min or maybe less. but i still miss working in HFC, i think i'm gonna want to switch around 2 places to work. the calm breeze at downtown east is simply drowsy.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
i got this off frm the net which i think is very useful for everyone How to Heal Anger, Misery, and Self Pitying / Michal Ron
In the Grinberg Method we describe the different aspects of life and character according to the four elements: earth, water, fire, and air.
Fire would be anger, for example.
Water would be the more introvert emotions. For exmple, feeling miserable.
Most of us acknowledge what seems to be the duality in life - good and bad, light and darkness, masculine and feminine, active and passive.
These are no real good and bad, but rather yin and yang - those sides that are considered more positive in a certain society, in a certain time, in a certain place, and their opposites.
Actually, each and every side, the 'positive' as well as the 'negative', has its own qualities, and we need to own both qualities in order to be whole. We want to be able to be both good and bad, both masculine and feminine, both active and passive. What we strive for is not one side, but temprance, balance, harmony between the two extremities.
Anger would be considered as the 'negative' side of fire, while its 'positive' side would be love, for example.
Misery would be considered as the 'negative' side of water, while its 'positive' side would be sensitivity, for example.
The way to 'overcome' anger, misery, and self-pitying is not by trying to 'overcome' them, but by seeing them for what they are - the 'negative' or ‘dark’ side of love and sensitivity. Those who allow themselves to love also get angry at times. Those who use their ability to feel sensitive feel miserable or pity themselves once in a while.
Instead of fighting it we could feel those in our bodies, and let them flow and enrich ourselves. There is no need to express those on the outside, only let ourselves feel how they full-fill our 'other', more introvert, half of us, and rejoice in that.
went to my ex classmates gathering. i'm so happy to see elfie there with his boyfriend!
i'm glad that my ex classmates had gradually accepted me.
just to share this article with you guys. (Sexuality is a Human Right)
http://www.fridae.com/newsfeatures/article.php?articleid=1824&viewarticle=1&searchtype=all
Thursday, December 21, 2006
chatted with sylvia till she missed 2 buses. fwahahah!! i ate swensen's with wei lin and syl with syl forbidding the to have the cherry.
there's suddenly a key board at home now. and my dad is finally regaining his passion. he plays it every single night. maybe it's time for me to practice my guitar properly to jam with him.. haha. i think some day my neighbours are gonna complain us for making too much noise. my dad says he have more "feel" playing it in the dark so he will not play it in the day.
holiday is finally here. time for me to take a break frm all the class politics crap.
i sent a mass msg to my brothers. msg says: hey just to share an encouragement, just be your best and teh best will happen. and i ended up with 2 of them calling and msging me, afraid that i'll commit suicide or something.
ohh!! and i'm invited by syl to party at dragonfly to celebrate her friend coming back to singapore. i wonder when will be the day that i dun have to lie to my parents abt going clubbing.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
after exhibition today i company syl go far east cut hair. i sat on the chair and fell asleep almost immediately. and after that i finally get to meet up with my dear bro joel. it's been so fucking long since i've last seen her.
so i company her to work. but didn't really get to talk to her though, the both of us are as tired and so lack of sleep, so instead of catching up we slept through the whole journey. so detour back to harbourfront to drop by subway for awhile to talk to my bros. on the way back to subway, 2 guys slap me on my arm while alighting the bus, like WTF!!??? i just don't know where all the ppl with brains are.
i'm surprise to see serene and ee mind in subway, that will be great news for me. cos in the end they send me home.
Iwan just msg me. bro, i didn't know you'll get so worried abt me. really, thanks.
Sylvia, Jeremy, Wei lin, Sharon, Joell, Kai tian, Gary, Rachel, Gabby, Serene, Elfie, Kathrine, Iwan, Alex, Nicholas, Leon, Jian hao, Julia, Chie kuan, Joey, Siyi, Hing boon, Kenneth, Felicia, Huizi, Xuan you, Sabrina, Alvin, Hao yi, Maybel, Gladys, Genevieve, Ray, Pang wee, Gwen, Derrick, Terrence, Leila, Siew kuang.my friends and brothers, i really treasure you guys. i treasure your company. i treasure your appreciation.
i hope to sit down and talk things through too. but things can't work out when one keeps lying and changing the little stories of one. I pity myself for not having the talent to gather my alliences.
And wrinkled pussy swirling around juvenile cases? not cool man. it could have been a better way to solve this matter if ppl don't step over our head and stomp on it. let bygones be bygones, i can understand that, but i doubt ppl of lower standards can.
i believe in karma, what you give is what you get in return. but don't worry, i'm gonna pray for the ppl who needs wisdom to overcome this horrible cause and effect. and i'll pray for good results for the whole class.
the semi dog has successfully become the bitch
Monday, December 18, 2006
i manage to finish nicholas's ring within 1.5 hours just now. i have dragged it for so damn long, i processed the silver, roll the silver rod measure the length and then it was in my tool box for 1 mth plus. i'm sorry my bro. but i'm just too busy with stupid projects.
then i dropped by subway to pass jian hao nich's ring. cos i dun think by any chance i'm gonna drop by there anytime soon. i met some new staffs and a new AM. hm.. i get what you mean now iwan..etucytterpdeednisieh. LOLi saw you just now and you seems like some egoistic fucker.your face tells me i don't belong in that place anymorei am not the stranger of that place. you are.i have no sense of belonging and i feel distant frm everyonei have said before that i have been replaced.right now i am totally casted out.
i just found my long gone super old watch in my drawer. i should start wearing it again. i haven't touched it for like 4 yrs and the battery is still running. my watch is cool man.
Jeremy accompanied me to mustafa yesterday. i manage to get a not bad quality long sleeve shirt for $24, quite worth it isn't it. but other things there are like unreasonably expensive. $10 per hush puppies boxer. where i can get it for 2 for $12.90 at john little. hush puppies is already a relatively cheap brand, i do not have to further compare abt the other branded ones.
i should not describe the scent of the shopping mall, cos i know that someone who have the same smell will read my blog. btw i am not racist
the management of mustafa are sure sexist though, i visited 2 to 3 buildings and there are no ladies section. and when i saw a directory that had an arrow pointing left with the word "ladies section" so i followed and see if there is really a ladies section but i ended up seeing the next sign withe the words covered up by masking tape. maybe cos all the indian ladies just wear cloths that why.
once again i am not racist
and my friend just msged me on msn just now saying that it would be fine if i join him for the christmas caroling. and his friends won't mind. which means, the most meals i'm gonna ever get in 1 night. we're suppose to sing outside their houses and then go into their house and eat.
i want a christmas tree in my house!! sigh, i used to have one. it was there for 2 yrs of christmas. but as my house got messier and messier, filling with more and more junk. that poor christmas tree has been thrown under my grandma's bed for dunno how many centuries.
i need to leave house later at 7.30am and i can't seem to fall asleep for the pass 3 hours. good luck to me then. *pour water into essential oil basin, drip peppeprmint essential oil into water, light candle*
switch on fan and disturb hamsters. psyco myself to do some work and try not to feel so guilty for slacking too much.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
jian hao refuse to drink water frm the bottle. stupid jian hao.
Friday, December 15, 2006
the hamsters keep moving and it's hard to capture a really nice pic of them.couldn't really sleep after doing my blog skin cos it's already 5.30am. so i lay on my bed for awhile and decided to see iwan off to indonesia. had a great morning though time is limited.wwent to school to collect the cute little hamsters frm ray. oh yea i've finally got my hams in the nicely decorated tank.i'm meeting jeremy on sunday..hm.. hope he can really make it this time.
phew, new skin is finally done. ok it's because i screwed up my old one..my friend is giving me 2 baby hamsters tmr. and one of them is gonna be named after jian hao (the perverted hamster.)
Thursday, December 14, 2006
ok now. someone is suppose to meet you up tmr and then today that person doesn't reply your messages or ans your phone call. you didn't loose hope and even brought that person's birthday present out with you the next day, (even thought that person has not given you any). this is something that makes me feel sick, very sick indeed.i don't like last min decisions and detest uncertainty very much. you know some things like "hey are we gonna meet up tmr?" it just requires a yes or no. not i don't know!! point is, do you wanna meet up? if you want, make it a priority then.ah.. was watching the L word season 4 trailer... hm.. where did my hot babe carmen go man!!!
Monday, December 11, 2006
i missed class today. overslept AGAIN!!! oh well..went to xuanyou's chalet on sat night. i finally get to meet up with my dear, i miss her so so much.
screamed and laugh our lungs out at the chalet playing bluff and the name game. it's been so long since we have gather together to have such fun. where is all the GM'02 ppl man!!??ah... i can't wait to go back to work perhaps because i'm damn broke now. i hope i still have my job.i haven't gone fishing for a damn damn long time. i wanna go fishing again!!! i am so traumatise by that stupid fishing chuan shuo.*irritated and rolls eyes*
Saturday, December 09, 2006
i think i have been provoking ppl like all around me.... fuck life, fuck labels, fuck rules.went out with pang wee and ray. all we did is just talk and talk and talk and then eat and then talk again and then talk . woot. it's beena long time since i feel so relieved talking and talking. i opened up to them after knowing them for so long. i'm glad they have accepted me. pang wee invited me to join his church's christmas carol, woot!! it will be my 1st time celebrating christmas. though i am very eager to go but, i'm afraid i'll be an out cast. christians+gay= CLASH get what i mean? and i am facing lots of issues about coming out. i thought opening up to my family was the hardest i guess i was wrong. this journey has just started. i should just stay in that fucking closet and die alone.
Monday, December 04, 2006
You are The High Priestess
Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.
The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
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[uh-lish-uh, uh-lish-ee-uh, uh-lee-shuh, -shee-uh] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun a female given name.
ppl lighting up candles to makeprayers for their families
screamed and laugh our lungs out at the chalet playing bluff and the name game. it's been so long since we have gather together to have such fun. where is all the GM'02 ppl man!!??