Thursday, November 30, 2006
does anybody know if there's any 2nd hand furniture for sale??
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
i found this saying in my 'complete metal smithing book' which is exactly what i am doing now to get my drive back.I am trying to check my habits of seeing,
to counter them for the sake of greate freshness,
I am trying to be unfamiliar with whta I am doing.John Cage
Saturday, November 25, 2006
big boobies lady traumatise me
Thursday, November 23, 2006
i feel cheated. i am so stupid...
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
ah...myspacebargotproblemgoddamnitargh!!!!ineedtogogetnewkwyboardsoon.
i'm thinking of deferring school. it's sad to say that i actually kinda hate school now. ssalcymetahitcaxeebot some ppl are just plain trying to act smart infront of me. just because i dun tell ppl alot about myself doesn't mean that i am soft spoken. i duno how much i can trust people. dun think that i will trust you if you tell me alot of stuff, you can tell other ppl more stuff. who are you to judge me anyway, i dun go around fucking. i do not seek what you seek. pls do not associate. i am enough of you taking me for granted, helping you with almost everything. why am i so stupid, you don't even care anyway. i must say thank you, i have indeed learn alot frm you and i hope you score in life. i can see you frm up here and i wish you can come up someday.i'm just spitting around here.bye my bitches.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
went out with serene for dinner. yum yum pepepr lunch.i am not going to do my daily encouragement thing anymore. argh!!! yes i have no integrity and i know it.i am sick of what i am doingi am boredi am tiredi am lonelyi am feeling very emptylooking through my phone book slowly considering which contact i can ask out. but none.i feel so patheic doing that.i have no motivation in continuing my studies. sick of life.argh maybe this is just a phase that i am going through.
Monday, November 20, 2006
Sunday, November 19, 2006
argh shit i have broken the daily encouragement thingy. so this is what happen so far.- went to help out mom at dad's restaurant
- rush to subway after that night shift
- siyi pay me a visit at subway
- went to help out mom again
- rush home to change
- rush to clark quay to meet up my brothers
- lost our way in searching of momo
- didn't manage to get into momo
- met a pretty girl
- went to live impact and dungeon
- saw my bao bei in live impact
- sang a duet with that pretty girl
- went maxwell after that
- walk to clark quay from maxwell
- wait for the first train at the river side
- and went home like a zombie
argh.. i wanna grow old with you....No matter what the circumstances, you should never concede defeat. Never conclude that you've reached a dead end, that everything is finished. You possess a glorious future. And precisely because of that, you must persevere and study. Life is eternal. We need to focus on the two existences of the present and the future and not get caught up in the past. We must always have the spirit to begin anew "from this moment," to initiate a new struggle each day.
daisaku ikeda
Thursday, November 16, 2006
i am so so lazy to post. actually have a few pics but it's in my handphone, and i am so so lazy to transfer to my comp. i just cutted my hair last again, sometimes i feel damn guilty cos my mom is so tired frm work and when she comes home still have to cut hair for me.mom just called home and said i have to help her work tmr!! YIKES!!!! i thought it's sat not fri!! got to talk to her when she comes home.The writer Goethe was an unflagging optimist. How was he able to maintain such optimism? Because he was always active. He did not allow his life to stagnate. He writes: "It is better to do the smallest thing in the world than to hold half an hour to be too small a thing." Spending thirty minutes a day assiduously challenging some undertaking can completely change our lives.
Daisaku ikeda
argh dun feel like bloggin. but since i've said that i will post an encouragement everyday. shit i have to persevere. AH!!!! school is getting more and more stress. politics and stuff. ah!!!so here. and btw while i'm typing this entry some unknown being is knocking on my ceiling. EEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!It is important that we live cheerfully. With a strong spirit of optimism, we need to be able to continually direct our minds in a bright, positive and beneficial direction and help those around us do so, too. We should strive to develop a state of life where we feel a sense of joy no matter what happens.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
i'm now at subway waiting for nich ck JY and that siao cha boh who by now 10.30pm still haven finish counting her inventory to finish their closing. i've told my mom that D&D lie and yea i'll be there so get me a ticket!! yayness!!ok so as i've said i'll post a encouragement everyday so here you are.Our existence in this world can be likened to a dream. The issue of by far the greatest importance and eternal relevance is how we face death, the inescapable destiny of all living beings. For in the face of death, external factors such as social status or position in the organization count for naught. Everything depends on one's faith, one's state of life.
i found out that aunty lucy used to be in soka gakkai as well. but due to some personal reason she gave up faith and became christian now. we talked alot about "National Day Parade" experiences and alot of things. and i have realise that i still have the passion i used to have before, i wanna be active in my SSA again and i wanna share my experiences, i wanna encourage people again. i want to feel hope again. therefore i decided to post a encouragement by my mentor Daisaku Ikeda as a start.
The German author Hermann Hesse (1877-1962) writes that the more one matures, the younger one grows. And certainly there are many people who, as they age, become increasingly vigorous and energetic, more broad-minded and tolerant, living with a greater sense of freedom and assurance. It is important to remember that aging and growing old are not necessarily the same thing.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
Friday, November 10, 2006
blog for the sake of posting.
damn tired now, dun feel like doing anything.
i wanna spend but i should not
Thursday, November 09, 2006
argh.. photography class was cancelled and am now waiting for design drawing lesson, got to go off 12.45pm. feel like going to buy that checked brown sweater vest.. it's only $29.90 but i hate being broke. but if i dun buy it now they mght not have the stock anymore!! Pls kindly donate money to posb savings account 170240294.
enamelling lesson
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
this is where and what i do every tuesday in the enamelling room.
these are all the colour samples
me and my beloved lecturer JANE!!!
JOJO!! RACHEL!! and MEI HUA!! in action!!
former mama, sandra haha caught her off guard. she definately look more pretty if she's not so shock. LOL
Ah.. rachel.. doing her singapore next top model stunt and eric gave her the idea of using a clear wrap as a accessory, project runway stunt! LOL!
These are the zhu ren and the pi gu on the left in my class.
our pieces after firing.
this is a baby lobster that our jewelelry department technician AH CHAI aka gun gun rears.
Eric in action!
Princess sylvia doing her stuff SOO SERIOUSLY!!!
This is some graffiti art on one of my school wall
walked pass si ma lu just now and saw a flock of pigeon.
i hope you don't mind that i put down in words.
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
you used to tell me things and vent all your anger on me, i'll have rather than the cold you now. i can be easily replaced and i am replaced. is it because of that one sentence i have said not long ago that made things turned around? you used to trust me so much, but now... i guess not anymore. the more i think of it the more i realise that i have been replaced. human are just such cruel creatures. so your motto is "just do it when you feel like it"? how about think about how people around you feels when you do so? do i have no impact on your life at all? am i really so irritating that you have to force a reply like "ok"yes"no"i dunno"see how lor" when i tried to talk to you? i have so many questions so many doubts, i know it can't be answered but it's all because you dun want to. i hope all i'm feeling is just self-consciousness. sometimes i think that you've changed, but maybe it's just that i got to know you better and better.sigh, iwan my bro, you've wrote so much about me in your blog... i really appreciated it and i really treasure our "brotherhood".tribute to ppl close to my heartto my brothers, iwan and nich. thanks guys, for being by my side when i'm down and blue. thanks for being a listening ear.to ck, jh. you guys are damn lame la, cracks me up all the time. both of you are very quiet, but i can sense that you care abt ppl around you.to my baby, julia. thanks for just asking me wads wrong when you saw that depression on my face, that alone already mean alot.to my darling, serene. thanks for every single thing, i mean it ok.to my aunty, leila. though i dun know you for very long. but pls talk more crap to me. and continue the story of marshmallow land. your crap really cheers me up. works all the time.to my dear dear dear old friend, JEREMY. can't express it in words. but i guess you know what and how i feel towards out friendship. just 2 words "soul mates" and thats enough.
to sylvia, you really tooked care of me and... i don't know how to repay you.
as i've promised to post the cannot make it out fit photo today.Here.
jian hao said to me, CHECK OUT HIS SHOES!!!hahaha LOL!!!argh.. shall leave the vietnamnese guy and the jap girl part of our fishing night to nich to publish.sigh... a bro whom i used to respect and gave in alot turned his back on me. went out together today, this friendship is at the verge of sinking. half sunken actually. i'm just selfless and you tooked me for granted, again and again!! and i still have my trust in you even so.. but after today, you're just like a stranger to me. i'm just trying to be nice, just trying to be a friend. do i really have to try so hard?
i love fishing.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
before me and nich went fishing, i met him and jian hao up to go shopping in town. hm... i made a trip down to takashimaya to pass joell a cheese steak sandwich. after that i went to fox to look for the guys and apprently nich found a T that he can fit into anypart of his upper body except for his arms. LOL, and yea, he's making a fuss over it. ah... didn't see what jian hao has bought. we den went to look for a wulu shop to see if there's any nice shirts but me and nich end up crossing the road like idiots with everyone looking, and jian hao pretending not knowing us. we over shot and u turn back to the shop and it's all ah neh style. and this is what we found.
check out the brand name!! anyway jian hao suggested to take this photo and to broadcast it.
and we did nothing at PS and jian hao damn sad la. he found a shirt he likes but last 2 sizes left are 'XS' 'XL' too bad.
walked to bugis street then. nich bought a shirt that looks smart and kinda class. looks very good on him.
i looked over like 7 shops that are selling the similar pants. after many rounds in those small dark and crowded narrow streets. i finally bought a pants for $40. argh... duno how to survive this mth..., but i think it's nice.'cos nich says it's NOT BAD' haha (internal joke).
nich and i rush here rush there and we finally reached east coast park break water no. 3 and fish from11.30pm till 9am. and check out the fishes we caught.
i couldn't wait till tomorrow to start eating the fishes and so.
yum! nothing beats the fresh taste of sea in the fish.
ah... i think me and nich are gonna get hooked up on pendulum casting very very soon. the fever is coming.
tired.. sleep.. need sleep...
Friday, November 03, 2006
Ah... my darling manager Serene called me this morninig 10am to wake me up. lucky for that, i'm 3 mins early for work today!!! YEAH!!ARGH!! have to wake up 5.30am tmr. so damn tired now... talking to leila now.. hai.. haven't made new friends in such long time. i'm quite on form working today, doubt i will be as energetic tmr.... argh.. leila is mind fucking me now, oh yeah... my pillow and my bed.... hm... marshmallow land... hm.... i want it... hm... good night my bitches...
ah... it's 4am now and I still can't sleep. have been lying on my bed for 2 hours and i still can't sleep. i'm currently typing without my spects so pls forgive me for any typo errors.hm... how am I gonna survive later at work? got to reach subway at 11am which means leaving hse at 10 and waking up at 9.30am. haha, I doubt I can do that, maybe i'll not slp, this way I won't be late. argh.. if i'm working morening shift den i can do this.after paying my accumulated hand phone bills and debts, i'm left with 100 for this whole month untili get my next pay again.apparently i'm left with only my incentives. i need a plan for this. 100 for a mth = veg and rice for every meal OR skip meals, which also = less smoking OR no smoking at all (yes, i can't do it you know me too well), and definately no taking of taxi regardless of what happens.I seriously hate it when my money flies. and i hate it when ppl take me for granted and borrow money frm me consistantly when i am damn f u c k i n g broke and the thing is they never return you the money.(yea you know who i'm refering to). haha dun worry that person don't know a damn about my blog and besides that person doesn't own a comp.I am so well trained that i can even survive on 50 to 80 dollars per month. haha! everyday on cup noodles and drink frm the water cooler in school. and when i work on weekends i get my emplyee meal. no worries man!!actually sometimes it's good to be broke for awhile and realise how important a damn 90c is when you're short of that to take a town link bus.This being broke section of my life, i will have to pay a tribute to my dearest dearest friend Jeremy, haha!! remember the days when we have to pack our own food frm home to "Aileen's place"(my old work place) ah... we are so happily broke then. we even have to went to the extend to buy cup noodles for dinner and EAT ON THE STREET!! RAWR!!! come to think of it now, it's actually kinda fun! but hard to live by.
Lucifer
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Lucifer is a fallen angel commonly associated with Satan, the embodiment of evil and enemy of God. Lucifer is generally considered, based on the influence of Christian literature and legend, to have been a prominent archangel in heaven (although some contexts say he was a cherub or a seraph), prior to having been motivated by pride to rebel against God. When the rebellion failed, Lucifer was cast out of heaven, along with a third of the heavenly host, and came to reside on the world.
Lucifer is a Latin word meaning "light-bearer" (from lux, "light", and ferre, "to bear, bring"), a Roman astrological term for the "Morning Star", the planet Venus. The word Lucifer was the direct translation of the Greek eosphorus ("dawn-bearer"; cf. Greek phosphorus, "light-bearer") used by Jerome in the Vulgate, having mythologically same meaning as Prometheus which bring the light to the man. In that passage, Isaiah 14:12, it referred to one of the popular honorific titles of a Babylonian king; however, later interpretations of the text, and the influence of embellishments in works such as Dante's The Divine Comedy and Milton's Paradise Lost, led to the common idea in Christian mythology and folklore that Lucifer was a poetic appellation of Satan.
Who thinks's this is cool says 'AYE'!!!
argh, i am just blah...
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Hm.. I realise that i'm actually in love with alot of old sentimentals and folky country musics. I dunno, scorpions, eagles, beegees, Abba, beatles, deep purple, eric clapton, celin dion, brian white, boys 2 men, collin raye, rod steward??? perhaps there's lots more, I just don't know their names. I love music from classical, to pop, to rock, to punk, to heavy metal, to alternative, to RnB, to country. but i just don't have the integrity to learn anything whole heartedly.
I seriously think that I will lead a better life and relate better with my classmates if I went for the interview to transfer to advertising course. but I stupidly withdraw myself out of the interview that morning, maybe it's really a big huge mistake that i've made. I don't exactly hate jewellery design i still have passion for what i am doing, just not as strong. I love graphic/advertising, I really do. I don't know wassup with me. I am half way through my diploma course and am still in doubt of myself. I hope to don't screw up my course.
I a m j u s t s o d e p r i v e f r o m c o n f i d e n c e
I manage to dig myself up from bed this morning around 10am to take up alittle precious time of my mom's to trim my hair. ok I know I don't really have any hair to cut but I have to keep it neat. yes?
I miss fishing, haven't been fishing for almost 3 weeks. Haha guess what, nich and I are going fishing at bedok jetti this sat night. hopefully I can master the skill to catch sotongs.
Argh looks like it's gonna rain soon, I still got to crash to subway to work later.
alright later dude.
nderous sunrise at east coast park!!
ght a freaking small fish
these are all the colour samples
me and my beloved lecturer JANE!!!
JOJO!! RACHEL!! and MEI HUA!! in action!!
former mama, sandra haha caught her off guard. she definately look more pretty if she's not so shock. LOL
jian hao said to me, CHECK OUT HIS SHOES!!!
check out the brand name!! anyway jian hao suggested to take this photo and to broadcast it.
